Reconstructing my normal existence…

If you would have told me three years ago that things in my life would NEVER be the same I would have told you you were crazy.  I thought I would forever struggle with skin issues, pain, night crawling, itching and blistering.  I thought I would always be tired and sluggish and in a brain fog because I was getting older.

But that is exactly what has occurred over the nine months of my healing.  Every aspect of my life has been demolished and reconstructed in a whole new and improved way.

2 Corinthians 5:17 Therefore if any man be in Christ, he is a new creature: old things are passed away; behold, all things are become new.

  • I sleep soundly and wake up refreshed.
  • I eat better food.
  • I feel better.
  • I shop differently.
  • My relationships have changed.
  • My routine has had drastic reconstructing.
  • My goals and perspectives have changed.

NOTHING is as it used to be and it NEVER will be again.  I’m moving on to new horizons.  There is NO TURNING BACK.

Thank God for giving me a NEW LIFE.

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Perfect colours for Autumn Sundays

Sharing joy for the season. Hope you enjoy as I have.
Hi to you all! This time I’m here with another cozy outfit, this time for Autumn. After long days of rain the sun came out and the temperature was good enough for just a sweater. I had to go …

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Don’t feed the worms.


After taking on what seems to be the impossible, detoxing myself from sugar, I was faced with the echoing dilemma, “How do I take sugar from my kids?” and “Will life ever be the same?”  

The answers are quite complex but not unreachable.

It came to me after talking about it with my four year old.

NOTE: My kids love playing in the compost pile and seeing who can find the biggest worms.

I was talking to the kids about parasites, the germs and invaders of the body, and about how sugars feed them and out of my mouth came the question, 

“Do you want to feed your worms?”

This pretty much took care of the problem.  Of course he didn’t want them in his tummy.

I haven’t had much of a struggle with the kids since.  Praise God for simple things.  Kids are so amazing and if we take the time to teach them truth at a level they understand, they grasp it quickly and completely.

I wish it was that easy for the teenager and husband to grasp.  But the echo of this question works for the young ones for now.

Update: after a few years and keeping sugar out of the house, my husband and teen have been able to feel the difference and they both are choosing to follow my lead and rarely have an issue.  We ALL feel pretty awful if we decide to give in a little.

Funny thing is, when my four year old now wants a sucker from the bank line he turns to mommy in public and says loud and serious,


After, I had made some major changes in my life, eliminating sugar from my diet and my kids diet, I have taken a lot of heat for it from others.  I feel like I am making the best choices for my children’s and my own health and for some reason, many feel that they must criticize and undermine me and tell me how terrible and mean I am being.


  • At birthday parties… “A little cake won’t hurt them.” Then comes candy from the piñata, ice cream and soda to top it all off.
  • Social gatherings… “Your mom won’t mind you having a little dessert” or two.
  • At the bank, from strangers… “What, they can’t have sugar? It’s only a sucker”
  • And still other times… “You can have it if you don’t tell you mom”

I don’t mind being the target, however, doing in front of or directly to my kids is not acceptable.  I have taught them why I have made these changes and they understand and don’t fight me.  I don’t need others to chime in and teach my kiddos to disobey or disregard my decisions.

I’m content being different and choosing to do the difficult in order to fight off disease.

My now five year old is just fine with it now.  I just remind him not to “FEED THE WORMS.”

Thanks be to God who gives us strength in our weakness.

2 Corinthians 12:8-10 King James Version (KJV)

For this thing I besought the Lord thrice, that it might depart from me.  And he said unto me, My grace is sufficient for thee: for my strength is made perfect in weakness. Most gladly therefore will I rather glory in my infirmities, that the power of Christ may rest upon me.   Therefore I take pleasure in infirmities, in reproaches, in necessities, in persecutions, in distresses for Christ’s sake: for when I am weak, then am I strong.


Healing Fudge




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Uncommon Cool Mint Carob Popcorn 

Carob Nutter Nano Smoothie 


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Self Must Die

The endless chatter Lights flickering Things all scattered about My new found love A  frame of time God renews God restores   I (sin) must die so I (self) can live This Echos  in my mind Galat…

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Gut Healing


Prevent and heal from disease by tackling what many believe to be the starting point of issues in the body, THE BOWELS, or a big part of the IMMUNE SYSTEM.  It’s all in the gut.  If you have ever taken a round of antibiotics (Follow link and see number 8), been vaccinated, ate Genetically Modified Foods (GMO-corn, soy and more), ate wheat products (high rate of spray with glyphosate-Monsanto’s Roundup), walked barefoot, traveled into other countries, or drink Tap water then you may have trouble in your gut, a compromised immune system, or organs that are working hard to keep you going day to day.  You may feel tired, overwhelmed, overweight, sick often, or feel like you just cannot maintain your stamina. You may not struggle all the time but seasonal allergies, food allergies, have pain or inflammation, or like me, dry, cracked and bleeding skin and eczema.


I also soon started on the 30 Day Faith Detox, I made it to day 10.  I needed to begin in the gut, ALTHOUGH EVERYONE IS DIFFERENT, I believe it all starts.  I began to address my lower bowels and take some high quality enzymes and a good probiotic to replenish my gut flora.  My friend suggested bone broth so I made me a batch of bone broth.  I was also reminded of the amazing testimonials I had heard from customers while working for Dr Christopher’s Herb in college.  We sold a formula specific to cleaning the bowels and I definitely needed and extra boost and decided to use the ingredients in Dr Christopher’s Lower Bowel Formula. and put together my own blend of herbs to use as a tea with herbs I found locally from World Of Nutrition, Nampa’s bulk herb section for half the price.  If making your own formula isn’t for you, here is a great option as well for your colon health.  The Supplement Facts are listed below.  Dr Mario Brus in Nampa Idaho suggests a product called RESTORE PROFESSIONAL, Restore-the gut tight junction closer and S. Boulardii by Jarrow to supplement nutrients needed and improve the gut health as well as doing a bone broth.  Some start gently with chicken broth to begin to heal the gut and restore the microbiome. There is also a product Biomedic, get $50 off with coupon code BETRUE, that helps block the glyphosate (Roundup sprayed on almost ALL NON ORGANIC wheat and other produce before harvesting) and restore the gut biome.  Please contact me for more info on these as I do not yet have the info.

I made a lot of my own remedies based on these ingredients, I also made bone broth and ate a high fat, veggie and juice diet for the beginning phase of my journey.

I always use caution and research the ingredients for myself, I started on a low dose and ultimately decided what to use and how much by the way I felt inspired to do.



  1. S. Boulardii Probiotics


Here is my Colon Cleansing shopping list

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Carob Nutter Nano Smoothie

Blend ingredients  in a Vitamix

  1. 1 C Coconut milk (or any milk you prefer!)
  2. 1/2 C Organic Peanut Butter
  3. 2 Tbsp Carob Powder
  4. 1 Organic Banana
  5. 5 Ice Cubes

Pour and enjoy!

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One Day at a Time

We live in a culture that seeks immediate results.  We want things NOW.  We want things easy.

Well nothing is that simple.  When it comes to healing and lasting results we must take it One Day at a Time and recognize our complete need for divine intervention.

I want to simplify it for you and share some history of how I got to where I am.

In the early 2000’s, I had heard about detoxing and cleansing when I worked for Dr Christopher’s herb shop connection back in college over.  But like so many, I had never considered my need for changing anything or pursuing it for my health, I was young and healthy.

That was then.

Fast forward to Early 2016

I knew I was not feeling well, I was tired all the time, and I struggled to get out of bed.  It seemed like a mild depression or lack of motivation.  Maybe I was just getting older.

I had settled for this as normal.  I couldn’t figure out why I had no energy, after all, I ate a variety of good food and drank only water.

On top of that, my kidneys were hurting almost constantly, reminding me of the nickel sized kidneys stone that had put me in the hospital for three days while camping in August of 2012 and my skin eczema had reached an all time unbearable, itchy, and blistering state that kept me up most nights.  Especially the week leading up the the full moon.

I started experimenting with removing added sugar from my diet and discovered that my eczema and my kidneys were fueled by added sugars.  Eating a clean diet and slowly introducing green drinks, Probiotics and Digestive enzymes as well as Chicken Broth and bone broth to my diet.  I also had checked out a book from the library The 30 Day Faith Detox by Laura Harris.  In this book, I found helpful tips on easy detoxes from one organ to the next, recipes and shopping recommendations, as if this wasn’t enough great stuff, she wraps it all up with a great daily devotional and spiritual and relational detox tips.  (I only made it to day 10—Here is why ~ I am looking forward to completing the 30 day journey as soon as I stop breastfeeding my 5th child)

I soon started experimenting with removing added sugar from my diet and discovered that my eczema and my kidneys were fueled by added sugars.

I knew I had stumbled on something incredibly effective and dove right in.  My body was overloaded in many areas and I was desperate for lasting result.

Here is my reasons for detoxing.

  • I knew my body must be overloaded
  • I heard about the benefits of detoxing
  • My organs were beginning to hurt for no apparent reason
  • I was tired of feeling like I could not function
  • The improvements I had after stopping my added sugar intake by using alternatives to my favorite sweets, chocolate, and beginning my green drinks after one week were evidence of HOPE.

About this same time, I had been talking with my friend in South Africa and gaining a lot of good Ayurvedic remedies and I had checked out the book 30 Day Faith Detox By Laura Harris from the library.  This all fell into place at the right time.  After eliminating added sugar from my diet, I began noticing changes to my eczema and even surprised by the disappearance of the corn on my foot that I had been quite used to as the new normal.  I started using the methods in the The 30 Day Faith Detox which included Detoxing the Liver gently, Colon and Eating Clean.

Laura Harris also recommends

Taking nightly Detox Baths

Key to detoxing

Do I really need to detox?

My thoughts on sugars

But hold fast and start today.  FOR THIS IS ONLY THE BEGINNING…


So slow down and be patient…  Live each day to its fullest.

One day at a time…


Facing Reality. Its all about the pie. Updated 12/23/18

I am here to say that this journey has been one of the hardest things I have ever done in my life.  I have been through some rough stuff. I had my first kid at 17 and raised him alone for some time.  I was using drugs and alcohol regularly at age 14.  Thankfully, God found me and Jesus died for me.

Changing my lifestyle and making drastic diet changes in a family surrounded by others who do not see eye to eye is a new level of difficulty for me. I am a sugar-holic and I live in a family who loves sugar.  I used to make amazing pies for the holidays.  I am still expected to continue my old ways.  This is one thing that I simply cannot do.  Not because I don’t love them and want to make things nice for them.  I cannot do what I have always done because I have suffered from kidney stones and eczema and I now know the truth about the dangers of sugar and I simply cannot make a sugary pie and not taste it.

I love my family and don’t want to feed them sugar and processed food.  And quite frankly, for me this means extreme physical misery and pain. Blistering and itching beyond bearable. Physical throbbing in my kidneys  and aching for days.

This has drastically changed our family dynamics and made me out to be the bad guy.  Holidays will never be the same without my pies.  This goes for my husband, kids, my extended family as well as my in laws.  I pray this isn’t the case for you along your journey to health but if so, you are not alone.

My husband made a comment the other day.  “I am heartbroken”.  He was serious and referring to our kids not being able to enjoy my pies for Thanksgiving.   I had ruined another holiday.  While this seems silly.  He was serious and lives for pie on Thanksgiving as it is ALL ABOUT THE PIE.

Sadly, its not about the health of those you love or that many go without food and shelter but about the pie.

I woke from a dream the other morning as I was in my dream trying to find a paper and pen to write down advise I was offering my niece.  Here it is.

“Reality is hard, face it.  If I don’t face reality, I must face my own stupidity.”. 

I don’t know about you, but this struck hard.  So hard I had to wake up to write it down.  I laugh at that one.  I thought it was brilliant.

Stupidity, to me, means anything that I am unaware or haven’t learned yet.  Since learning about all the detriments of sugar and poor food choices, I must daily chose to FACE REALITY…

A heavy subject but just being REAL today.

This is to my friends who are facing the same struggle of going against popular vote.

You can do the difficult.  All things are possible.

Philippians 4:12-14 I know what it is to be in need, and I know what it is to have plenty. I have learned the secret of being content in any and every situation, whether well fed or hungry, whether living in plenty or in want.  I can do all this through him who gives me strength.

Yet it was good of you to share in my troubles.

We have come along ways now and my husband and family support me now and pretty much accept that sugar is bad and avoid it most of the time and we don’t bring sugar and toxic food into the house.  This has been a long time in the works but it is possible and with God, all things are possible.

This is How I Survive the Holidays


Eczema is Clearing


My eczema started clearing up after I was able to go without sugar and started drinking my greens from Purity Products Organic Juice Cleanse. It would flair back up when I snuck any sugar and that dang maddening itch began.  I would notice a pattern as I was out standing outside observing the full moon.  So I began to pay attention and realized that quite a bit of restlessness, swelling and itching occurred each month for about 5 days prior and up to the full moon.  I tried many things that helped, like changing my diet, morning detox drink, and some that didn’t.  While diets is key, the easiest most simple methods are my Nightly Detox Baths followed by soaking my hand in vodka and essential oils and alternating with my thyme discovery.  I used these things nightly until my hand cleared and anytime I could feel a flare up followed by applying Pine Salve. With patience and vigor over the past 8 months I have been clear of painful blistering for two months now. What are you waiting for?  Get started today or step it up.

None of this would be possible without the strength and wisdom provided me by God.  May He get all the glory for healing me and providing all that’s necessary from this day on.  All His amazing food and the Spirit to guide me.

Psalm 84:10-12 King James Version (KJV)

For a day in thy courts is better than a thousand. I had rather be a doorkeeper in the house of my God, than to dwell in the tents of wickedness.  For the Lord God is a sun and shield: the Lord will give grace and glory: no good thing will he withhold from them that walk uprightly.  Lord of hosts, blessed is the man that trusteth in thee.






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